Shadows

There's a shadow in my day.

Of the eight types of intimacies (see below), I want them all, most of the time, not most, some of the time. When some of the eight became shadows in my life, I just had to step out, accept them as a part of me, and shine a light on them.  I know what my favorite intimacies are, the ones I cannot go without. Do you? I don't think we can have it all, all of the time. But I think it's possible to have them all, most of the time.

Want, and love. And friendship. And peace.

I really, truly do believe you can have it all. It just takes work. I'm a hard worker. It will happen for me. What to do in the meantime.... shine a light on it.

Eight Types of Intimacies

l. AFFECTION

2. SOCIAL

3. EMOTIONAL

4. INTELLECTUAL

5. PHYSICAL

6. AESTHETIC

7. SPIRITUAL

8. SEXUAL

hopeLESS

 Jack Johnson, Banana Pancakes

My youngest daughter still comes in the bed at night. I can't tell her, but I will be devastated when she stops her nightly snugglefest. She ventures over, tranquil and cool (her tiny feet are always cold and she nuzzles them in my side for warmth). This little before dawn traveler is always a little chatty. When she was three, we'd chat. Mommy, you hewre. Yes, sweetpea. Mommy, I love you. Lots of big squeezes and forehead and/or cheek kisses ensue. Last night was particularly smushy. You know what mimi, you da best mommy evah. I try not to talk back anymore, but sly child that she is, she knows just what to say and I forget my silence. Mimi, you want me to scratch youwr back. Being pure kitten myself, I couldn't resist. Truth be told, I love having all three of my sweetpeas in the bed. We cozy up. Left, right and center. Everyone purrs. My brood of kit, kitten, kitty and kittycat.