the silver lining

I've heard this exact compliment before.

I collect compliments like some people collect coins. I also have saved every thank you card/note I received since I was in college. At first, I kept the notes in a small tin. As the notes grew, so did the size of the tin until I finally had to get a large hat box. If I ever doubt who I am, I can open my sunflower covered hat box and see a sea of compliments. Sometimes, all I have to do is open the box and touch the notes and move them around and I feel better. Gratitude by osmosis. Although I am more than grateful for every time someone calls me gorgeous or beautiful, it's the unusual people and unique compliments I remember the most.

Time has paid me a compliment. The pain is different now. I don't think it's ever going to go away, it's just going to change. So my best friend right now is time. We're almost at the one year mark. What will it take for us to feel the sparkle of the silver lining. I wonder when are we one moment away from the other side of the rainbow.

I want one!

Although I haven't read "Fifty Shades of Grey," nor have I seen the movie "Magic Mike," I did watch an entire season of "Sex and the City" while on vacation. While I realize they are all fictional characters, I find these women to be so sexually free it's fascinating. My reality is always far better than fiction and I am ready for some crazy, stupid love. Like Carrie admitted once, "I just need to feel the weight of a man on me."